Challenges

I have faced many challenges in my life.  Some of them have been big and some not so big.  Some of the big ones I have gone through with grace and dignity, other big ones I have not handled with anything but my flesh.  Even some of the little ones I have not handled very well, thus turning little ones into bigger ones!  Every day...every moment, I have a choice.  I can choose life or death.  I can choose to do things YHVH's way or the enemy's way (or the fleshly way).  As I have gotten older I am hoping I make better choices every moment that goes by.  As I get older I am hoping I am a better representative of my Messiah!  This is not always the case though and for that I grieve myself and my Master.  Some days I just don't have the faith that I need.  I get my eyes on the problem and off of Him that can help with my problem.  On those days my fruit of the Spirit/ Ruach does not show up very well.  That is when I have to stop all that I am doing and have time with my Abba.  It is only through Him that I can make the right choices.  It is only through Him that I can have the strength!   It is only through Him that I can choose life!


Today's challenges for me have been easy and yet hard.  They have been easy because today my eyes are on Him.  They have been hard because it is hard to see a loved one sick.  My 13 year old daughter has lyme.  She is very sick.  (I have another blog that speaks of that)  On top of that I am very certain that my husband, and 2 more of my daughters also have lyme.  We are not treating them because we don't have the funds at this time to treat everyone.  Then in the back of my mind I think that I too may also have this disease.  If I take my eyes of the Messiah this can all be very overwhelming.  How am I going to find a cure for my family?  How are we going to afford treatment for us all?  I could melt into a massive puddle of tears and stress if I get my eyes onto my problems.  I have to choose life or quite possibly there will be death in our home.  I do not say that to be dramatic.  I say that to bring home a point.  When I choose death it does no one any good, including my family.  If I am continually melting down, and overwhelmed with my situation then I can help no one.  I am not writing this saying I have all the answers .  Nor am I writing for sympathy.  I am writing this as a reminder for myself that my eyes need to be firmly placed on the Master because the enemy plays for keeps..this is not a game.  This is war.  I don't want to play into the enemy's hands..I want to sit at my Master's feet where He will protect me and cover me!  HalleluYah!